havent u come across people who ask you for something today and expect the reply yesterday? well, i have seen them only too often and yes, they irritate me no end. patience has never been one of my strong points either but the kind of people i mentioned earlier are just unbearable.
however when joey and i were working on the garden we differed only on one point. she wanted it to be a full fledged garden within a couple of hours while i could wait for about 3 days. hmmm...what a difference!
at the end of it all i was quite ashamed of myself really for lacking patience completely. Not as bad as joey, but bad enough! even my numerous attempts to lose weight have failed due to my impatience. exercising for half an hour a week and then expecting to lose 5 kilos during that time is like expecting the impossible. expectation is such a vicious thing. it almost always bring disappointments.
my swamiji always says that one should perform duties as a free expression of the mind and the soul. he says expect nothing and you will find a fountain of peace and joy. do it for the love of it and in this context, exercise because you love to exercise or do gardening because you love to do it. The end result will be bountiful when you least expect it.
meanwhile i did see joey plucking that yellow leaf off that plant and i think i heard her whispering, 'if you dont grow by tomorrow...' that was just after i had bribed them to fertilizer and growth hormones and coaxed them into growing for me in 3 days. i think we will never learn!
Saturday, May 3, 2008
the impatient expecting mind
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I'm convinced those plants will only grow after I'm long gone.....all that hard work and they are looking more yellow than green.....- Nat said its due to the shock of moving but my personal view, it is your excessive loving tender care, definitely cannot be my, grow or else threats.....
Hi Smileymenon. I'm new to your blog and just read your input. Interesting! You seem to call the swamiji as yours, you refer to him as 'my swamiji' you seem to prefer to own him, he seems to be yours. Many people do not reflect on this for eg they say 'my wife' or my husband'. We don't know their names but they seem to be objects of this person's. When we treat people like objects we tend to do things for them like you making great efforts to build a garden at the centre, getting the flowers right, etc. There's nothing wrong in this. Please don't think I'm giving a sermon here. What I mean to say is that, are you really doing this for your self or to ask for the happiness from the swamiji when he sees the garden? Which is it? You know its not easy to answer it because we have to be very truthful about it and its painful.
Cheers.
with peace,
Suguna
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